Back to the Future.

Heyyy there blogspot! Remember me? I went back through some posts I'd written a while ago but was too afraid of posting and published them so the whole wide web can see. I was hoping someone would see them and find pleasure in my pain.

Anyyway. Not too much on the boy front lately. There's this one guy I'm so crazy madly in love with that it feels like I'm in an 80's movie... of course he doesn't know how I feel! How else would I make Jake Ryan comparisons?

I'm pretty much done with college applications so expect loads of updates on my musings. Cool.

Happy holidays!

hrrm.

Guy I had a brief fling with this summer goes on year-long tour of Europe with friend, one month in and he has a relationship.

Guy I hooked up with a month ago ("you don't make out with someone you hate") hooks up with other chick, she goes to Japan, now she has a boyfriend, but he still wants to hook up with her.

I've given up on trying to decipher modern relationships. I doubt I will ever really learn anything on the field of romance in my lifetime. But in the meanwhiles...

Guy (#3). There is a spark. I fidget when I talk to him. My stomach hurts just thinking about him. We trade stupid insults. But (and it's a big one) he has a girlfriend.

-Pause for dramatic effect. Long sighhhhhh-

Fuckshittitsfuckandfuck. Why is he flirting with me if he has a girlfriend? And it's not like he's an idiot, a douche, a prick, a mofo. He's a great guy.

So what is this nonsense?